[ He says it thoughtlessly, only to snap his teeth shut on the inside of his mouth until it bleeds. A snarl of displeasure ripping through his chest.
How DARE this kaiju. He'll rip it apart with his bare teeth and deign to eat its liver, despite his aversion to meat, solely because he hates it so much. Like Tezca, for the crime of hijacking the mind of the true divine, he wants the Lord punished. In his world, that would mean destroying it, its images, and all of its followers — condemning it to oblivion and obscurity, the way Set himself had been. It leads him to draw away from Tezcatlipoca, to huddle his face between his knees and fight through the urgent sensation: right your wrong, repay your debt, atone to the Lord.
It finds easier purchase in him, because his will is in tatters. Because he already is working on atoning, and the kaiju simply has tuned into that frequency. As he comes back to himself, he carries on like there's nothing wrong. ]
Sometimes I wonder if we are being tested by something greater. Each kaiju is more difficult than the next, yes. It is the matter of the associated "challenge" that I am thinking of — the testing of morality, choice, consequence, recovery, mental fortitude. I think that is the true war. As if we are being observed and pressed to our breaking point. I think that is the loss we cannot come back from. Not the loss of numbers, but the will to continue.
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[ He says it thoughtlessly, only to snap his teeth shut on the inside of his mouth until it bleeds. A snarl of displeasure ripping through his chest.
How DARE this kaiju. He'll rip it apart with his bare teeth and deign to eat its liver, despite his aversion to meat, solely because he hates it so much. Like Tezca, for the crime of hijacking the mind of the true divine, he wants the Lord punished. In his world, that would mean destroying it, its images, and all of its followers — condemning it to oblivion and obscurity, the way Set himself had been. It leads him to draw away from Tezcatlipoca, to huddle his face between his knees and fight through the urgent sensation: right your wrong, repay your debt, atone to the Lord.
It finds easier purchase in him, because his will is in tatters. Because he already is working on atoning, and the kaiju simply has tuned into that frequency. As he comes back to himself, he carries on like there's nothing wrong. ]
Sometimes I wonder if we are being tested by something greater. Each kaiju is more difficult than the next, yes. It is the matter of the associated "challenge" that I am thinking of — the testing of morality, choice, consequence, recovery, mental fortitude. I think that is the true war. As if we are being observed and pressed to our breaking point. I think that is the loss we cannot come back from. Not the loss of numbers, but the will to continue.