[Dearka just kind of takes it?? He's not even sure what he can say in his defense because Yzak's right, there's nothing he could have done about Brasov and he's not so self centered as to think there was anything HE could have done that anyone else couldn't have. And yet! Knowing that still doesn't stop him from feeling like shit about it sometimes! And now, knowing Yzak might be at high risk in THIS situation is just ripping open those wounds again.
He glances away, muttering like a surly child.]
I'm not... Looking at you like that.[Is he...?] I'm just...
[He's just. Worried. And he's SO bothered that Yzak thinks he'd ever look at him that way, or think he was frail, or incapable, he doesn't even know what to say at first. How could he EVER, given everything they've been through? Given what their JOBS are? It's not that Yzak is weak. It's that Yzak is something precious to Dearka that sometimes, lately, he can't look at without remembering that SOMETHING out there might be trying to take him away.
And it can attack at any time, without warning. Faster than even a Coordinator can react.
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He glances away, muttering like a surly child.]
I'm not... Looking at you like that. [Is he...?] I'm just...
[He's just. Worried. And he's SO bothered that Yzak thinks he'd ever look at him that way, or think he was frail, or incapable, he doesn't even know what to say at first. How could he EVER, given everything they've been through? Given what their JOBS are? It's not that Yzak is weak. It's that Yzak is something precious to Dearka that sometimes, lately, he can't look at without remembering that SOMETHING out there might be trying to take him away.
And it can attack at any time, without warning. Faster than even a Coordinator can react.
And that scares the fuck out of him.]