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TRAVEL/KAIJU LOG #8

ANGELS FALL INTO THE UNDERWORLD


CONTENT WARNINGS: death, disease, COVID-like illness, drugs, loss of limbs, gore, violence, hallucinations

▶ 001. OUTSIDERS UNBOUND (TRAVEL)

There are no alarm blaring this time, no signals dispatched to the Outsiders’ oculars. With all of the organization down, the Angels of LILITH are left on their own to find the source of this crisis and solve it. And find it they did: an effort led by Aventurine, Jinx, Rin and Murasama was able to locate Ereshkigal somewhere underground in the country of Iraq. Raidou was able to ascertain that this location is Kûr - the Underworld spoken of in ancient Sumerian legends - and Tezcatlipoca used his divinity to confirm what many feared: the missing goddess has been corrupted and has become a calamity attempting to end humanity. What of the seven others who have disappeared? Tsurumaru, Ratio, Silco, Godzilla, Yzak, Bakugou and Hiyori? Are they corrupted too or are they prisoners? And what of Yuji who foolishly leaped into a rift in an attempt to rescue his friends? According to Dante’s efforts to connect with them, they are safe but they aren’t exactly in their right mind. But in what way?

Those questions may be answered soon as Outsiders depart for their next mission. Yesod and Shinn were able to further refine the search and identify the location of the Underworld’s entrance: in the archaeological dig of Nimrud, where the ruins of the Temple of Ishtar are found. Gilgamesh, who is seemingly a regular of Kûr, may be able to guide the Outsiders once they get there.

The trip to Kish however is nothing like previous travels. Where LILITH is typically an organized and orderly organization, the Outsiders have to devise their own methods of getting there. Kaga and Akagi are flying LILITH’s cruiser to Kish and will take anyone willing to go with them. Others may also use a data portal to go to Egypt and from there travel to Iraq - it is the longest way, but also perhaps the safest?

▶ 002. KUR KIGAL IRKALLA (RUINS OF THE TEMPLE OF ISHTAR, IRAQ)

Upon arriving, the heat is scorching and the sight is one unlike any the Outsiders have seen before. No futuristic buildings nor old-fashioned houses can be found - instead, there are the ruins of a three thousand years old city. Dr. Masuda welcomes the Outsiders, explaining to them the ongoing archaeological efforts that have been undertaken to restore the site thanks to modern technology.

And indeed, a few ancient buildings on the outskirts of the ruined city are fully restored. Due to the unique circumstances, Outsiders are allowed to use them and enjoy all the comfort from ancient times. Though there are beds, they are made with reeds with stone pillows; if you are fortunate, you may find one of the few pillows made with wool and feathers. At the very least, as far as food is concerned the Outsiders will not suffer: the archaeologists offer bread, cheese, and meat stews all cooked in the ways of ancient Mesopotamia. Blank clay tablets and reed pens can also be found, toys for children made of clay and little statues depicting various deities. There are also a lot of broken statues, and Dr. Masuda has an explanation for those.

"Our troubles began last month with an earthquake. Upon assessing the damage, we found all of Ishtar’s iconography throughout the ruins destroyed. What’s weird is that nothing else’s been damaged - it’s like someone or something vandalized all things related to her. Then in the deepest chamber of the temple, we found a tunnel that wasn’t there before. According to our tools it leads to an underground cave. Dr. Jones and his team decided to explore it, but they haven’t returned yet."

He will take the Outsiders to the Temple of Ishtar, which still lays in ruins and hasn’t been restored. Statues depicting the goddess are all shattered, and upon reaching the deepest chamber underground: an opening. Flashing a light inside will reveal a tunnel with no end in sight. As they stand by the opening, Outsiders will find their tracker rings and localization magics reactivating: their companions are deep inside the cave.

▶ 003. GATE OF GRAVE KEEPER (FIRST GATE OF THE UNDERWORLD

After a period of traveling through the dark cavern, the air is cool and smells sharply of earth and iron. They will be greeted by a pale glow. When they come close, they will see the light coming from several cages that line a single path which leads them deeper and deeper - all identical to the one Ereshkigal is usually seen carrying around.

They might notice random pitfalls of various depths and strange rock formations with characters scratched into the surface. Were those the names of long lost Outsiders or maybe figures from home? They disappear when you look away, becoming illegible after. Was it maybe a trick? Further up ahead, figures can be seen and voices can be heard in the distance.

Those who decide to run ahead will find themselves facing someone from their past. They act normally at first but after a while, the Outsider may notice something amiss. Regardless of who they are, they will try to convince the Outsider to "join them." Should the Outsider falter, they may be afflicted by the Rift, triggering feelings of grief and regret and even make them turn on their allies.

For those strong enough to resist the illusions, the figures become frustrated and lash out. They shed their illusions and reveal themselves to be skeletal spirits that slash at the Outsiders with sharp claws. They are relentless but simple enough to defeat with regular attacks.

Defeat the spirits and carry on ahead to find a mausoleum: the sealed gate. Many gallû spirits guard the gate. A dark, hooded figure calls out from atop the mausoleum. They look down on the Outsiders with cold, steely eyes.

"I didn't expect so many to make it this far. I'm surprised."

The figure draws their sword and on cue, the spirits attack. Defeat them to enter the mausoleum and fall deeper into the underworld.

▶ 004. GATE OF REASON (SECOND GATE OF THE UNDERWORLD)


As Outsiders descend further into the Underworld, the ocular network becomes spotty, making it difficult to keep in contact with each other, though it is still possible with concentrated effort.

Upon exiting a narrow passageway, they are greeted with a pathway that branches into two, with what seems like Rifts at each end. Despite their appearance, they do not give off any Rift energy, nor do they cause any Rift poisoning symptoms.

Cackling laughter resounds as a Gallû Spirit bursts into existence from blue flames. When it speaks, the voice that comes out of it is eerily familiar:

“You’ve proven you can fight, but what of your mind? Use your brain and make your way towards me, or suffer a foolish death.”

Immediately, the world descends into chaos. It blurs, twists and undulates unpleasantly. Colors mix, yet somehow retain their shape. It is a vivid hallucination, as if one had taken psychedelic drugs. The Gallû Spirit cackles again as it disappears, leaving them to their doom.

Entering either portal will lead Outsiders to a wide cavern with even more portals. The cracks in the ground and streams of deep, rushing water are wide enough to fall into. There are slopes, rocky platforms and other natural cave hazards. Portals dot the walls and ceiling, tilted sideways or even upside down. Others traversing the maze can be seen sideways and upside down, even if they feel they're right side up. It's an Escher maze. For the especially keen, they may notice the faint scent of chalk lingering around some portals. Or, instead of the echoes of cave ambiance, the portals emit silence with the occasional flutter of a page, as if they’re in a library.

Once they find the exit, Outsiders are greeted with a gate decorated with Greco-Roman motifs, sandwiched between stone shelves lined with carvings of tablets, books and scrolls. Sitting atop the frame that juts out of the rocky walls is a familiar man in unfamiliar form, playing with a cube containing a blue flame and looking bored out of his mind.

“Not bad. Five points.”

▶ 005. GATE OF EXCISION (THIRD GATE OF THE UNDERWORLD)

From the last gate, Outsiders will have to navigate semi-narrow passageways and fissures, lined with bioluminescent mushrooms. It’s easy to get lost, so make sure to use the buddy system to make your way through! It opens into a chasm, leading to a dock, and a lake. The buildings around the dock are decrepit and old.

In the middle of the lake, there is sharp ironwork interlaced with patches of stained bottle glass, and the top is inset with a small, teal gem. Getting to the gate seems easy. It’s just in the middle of the lake, and a little swim never hurt anybody, right? If Outsiders try to swim, it will subject them to rift poisoning, and staring at it might tempt them to jump in.

There are Gallû spirits are dressed up like half-pint thugs, and their glass covered faces are pretty disarming! They wait alongside five monstrous forms in shredded clothing that the particularly observant will notice look like explorer’s garb – it’s Dr. Jones and the missing archaeologists!

"Do you know the difference between a man and a monster? Is it a fact of nature, is it something one is born with? Is a monster truly just nature? Sometimes, but not necessarily. Being a monster is often a choice. Becoming a monster is simple. It takes a simple choice. It means you have chosen to do whatever it takes, to take what you want. To hold power in your hands. We all understand that. Can you become the monsters you must become, to survive?"

With the last word, the archaeologists and the Gallû spirits attack. Though difficult, if Outsiders are able to defeat Dr. Jones and his crew of corrupted, shimmered archaeologists and Silco, then a path towards the door will lift from beneath the water to the gate.

▶ 006. GATE OF SURVIVAL (FOURTH GATE OF THE UNDERWORLD || KAIJU FIGHT)

As the Outsiders descend a black staircase, they find a towering gate lit by flickering blue flames and a brick path leading to an endless field of lava. Thunder cracks as rain hisses against the magma. Overhead, clouds churn, lightning dancing through the Underworld’s ceiling.

A roar echoes from the gate and Gallû Spirits rise from the stones, clad in cheap monster suits like in a low-budget film. Both these spirits and the erratic lightning strikes are a threat as the kaiju unleashes torrents of malevolent red energy. The violent red energy pulses through its body, shining along its scales and feathers.

█ █ █ MONSTER DEBRIEF SHEET
NAME: 𒃀𒀭𒂠𒍠𒁠𒇠𒇠𒀀
HEIGHT: 13m
WEIGHT: ???
CLASS: Extremely Dangerous
LOCATION: The Underworld
ABILITIES: Produces a high temperature energy and is capable of using it as a method of ranged attack. Armored Scales, sharp teeth and claws, tail is likewise a dangerous weapon. Intelligent. Amphibious, resistant to extreme climates.
WEAKNESSES: EMP effects can interfere with the creature’s energy attacks. Exposure to music or verse causes confusion that will make attacking easier. Angering it will cause the creature to fight more recklessly, leaving openings that can be exploited.
EXTRA NOTES: Exercise caution attacking the creature from behind, do not engage it should it enter water.
RIFT EFFECTS: Corruption, Sumerian Fever

█ █ █ ATTACHED PHOTO:



CW: GORE, LOSS OF LIMBS
The battle is savage, with Lucy and Gilgamesh delivering the strongest blows. Lucy’s attack lands early in the fight, and the confusion caused to the kaiju by Raidou and Taryon’s recitals coupled with Akagi, Donatello, and Dearka’s musical interference allows for a clean cut that removes the beast’s right arm! Thanks to Hunter’s ice magic, the beast is frozen solid in ice long enough for Kadaj to strike in deeply! Bravely, Muramasa allows Cagalli’s Akatsuki to throw him towards the kaiju like an angry sword wielding baseball. Capitalizing on Godzilla’s weakened legs Athrun seizes his tail and sends Godzilla tumbling to the ground. Nanami further unbalances the kaiju, allowing Gilgamesh to capitalize on this with his own attacks, the force of which knocks the kaiju hard enough that the tail rips right off!
END CW

This makes Godzilla very upset and sends him into a rampage! Thankfully, Aventurine’s falling poker chips keep everyone from the worst of the retributions. Aki, Vash, Lucy, Geto, and Shinn manage to land in attacks even as the continued damage leads to Godzilla charging his attack, the red glow from his mouth intensifying. All of those efforts give the perfect opening for Harumasa’s arrow to land a perfect hit! His arrow flies true, finding a gap in the scales of the kaiju's throat and delivering an electric shock into his body, sending the beast falling to the ground with that final decisive blow.

The kaiju manages to rise to his knees for a brief moment, so he can fire a final blast of red energy skyward, igniting the clouds and dispelling the storm. The majority of Rift Energy has been purged from his system. Fully spent, he collapses with the glow fading from his body. The spirits vanish, magma cools, and the path ahead clears.

Beyond this gate is an area of respite. A field of clay flowers and sculpted trees awaits, devoid of all life but providing a chance to rest and recover after their trials.

▶ 007. AFTERWORD.

Welcome to the 6th travel log but 8th kaiju log... We'll just call it the 8th kaiju log. As mentioned in the last mingle, the June event is a player plot in which the Outsiders have come together in order to resolve the present crisis.

In this event, all seven gates of the Underworld will have to be crossed and their guardians defeated! However, your character doesn’t need to play out going through every gate. They can let others deal with the earlier gates to focus on later gates. Though they are not featured in this log, Yzak, Bakugou, Hiyori and Ereshkigal will have their own trial/battle in the second log. It is possible to encounter them in this log if they have a top level and come to check on their fellow guardians protecting the earlier gates.

This event is longer than usual so please refer to the event breakdown below for summaries if necessary. Additional information may be provided in top levels of characters involved in the player plot planning.
EVENT BREAKDOWN/RECAP (CLICK TO EXPAND)
001. OUTSIDERS UNBOUND (TRAVEL) With none of the usual alarms or notifications, Outsiders are on their own in terms of figuring out the current crisis. Through the collective efforts of the Outsiders, they will have discovered a route to Ereshkigal and potentially the missing through Iraq. Outsiders are expected to find their own way to Kûr - the Underworld,whether with some help or through the data portal through Egypt.

002. KUR KIGAL With their arrival to the old city, Outsiders are provided shelter in the form of restored buildings that have been retro-fitted for their comfort. With food and shelter no longer a concern Dr. Masuda takes the Outsiders to the Temple of Ishtar where the trials await them deep in the tunnel and caves systems.

003. GATE OF GRAVE KEEPER In the first gate, Outsiders may find pitfall traps and strange gravestones with familiar names written on them. Gallû spirits can manifest as figures from characters' pasts and will try to convince characters to succumb to the effects of the Rift. Overcoming the trial and defeating Tsurumaru will allow Outsiders to pass to the next gate.

004. GATE OF REASON Outsiders must battle nauseating hallucinations and navigate a portal maze with dangerous traps and Gallû spirits. They can find portals that smell like chalk or sound like turning pages to reach the exit. Reaching the end and defeating Ratio will lead to the next gate.

005. GATE OF EXCISION Outsiders must work together to move throughout fissures, dangerous water, and trap buildings. They can encounter the missing scientists who are drugged to be berserk, stronger, and have more stamina. Defeating them and Silco will allow Outsiders to move on to the next gate.

006. GATE OF SURVIVAL Outsiders must climb up a staircase and fight Gallu spirits while avoiding energy blasts from Godzilla. The environment is very stormy and hot because of magma. Defeating the kaiju will allow Outsiders to move on the next gate but also provide them with a moment to rest and recover.


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[personal profile] coordination 2025-06-03 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Both of them seem to be getting under his skin a bit, now. Young Dearka moreso, because they don't need his stupid extra commentary! ]

This isn't the time or the place to be joking around! [ He speaks with that authoritive tone that he takes on when he gets Really Serious, when the tolerance for flippancy is at zero because what he speaks about is extremely important. ]

Which is why you should all stop what you're doing instead of just rushing in here looking for a fight! These gates aren't here to keep you out, we need you behind them with us so we can finally be done with what we've trying to accomplish in this world.

So we can go home.
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[personal profile] busternaut 2025-06-03 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[Teenage Dearka, predictably, looks rather sulky over being snapped at. But the real one stares at Yzak quietly for a moment, that strained smirk still on his face.

There are multiple degrees of flippant Dearka behavior. The differences between them can be very subtle, but Yzak usually has a master's degree in knowing the difference, because that's just the kind of shit you learn to get a better read on when two lives entangle as much as theirs have.

Dearka's last comment? Wasn't supposed to be a "ha ha, I'm a funny clown trying to keep things light and breezy" kind of joke. It was a, "I'm upset about this, and if I don't refract my feelings about it through several lenses of irony, I'm going to start getting legitimately angry" kind of joke. It's a joke with a kernel of truth to it: because the fact is, the way Ereshkigal had taken people was terrifying, and straight up traumatizing for many who witnessed it. And he, personally, did actually lose a fucking limb and almost BLEED OUT as a direct result of it. He's not going brush aside his own degree of responsibility for that happening? He's trying very hard to be cool about it, in fact. But it DID still happen, and it kind of sucked. A lot.

He shifts his weight uncomfortably, from one foot to the other.]


...Alright, I'll bite. What exactly is it that you've been trying to "accomplish"? 'Cuz last I checked, we both agreed we needed to give it our all here so we can make sure the kaiju won't ever become a threat to PLANT. So... What. You think you've found some way to expedite that happening? How?

[Please don't say ending this world...]
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[personal profile] coordination 2025-06-04 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
We saw what was happening to LILITH's staff. [ He sounds a lot less concerned about that compared to when the two of them spoke of it before. ] Ideally, it'll stop at them.

[ Ideally, ]

I admit that Goddess Ereshkigal wanting to target the rest of the planet after that is a little extreme. [ So yeah, he kind of IS implying there are some end of world possibilities here. ] But I'm not the only one who thinks that, and she's still her, you know. She's our ally, our friend. She's not beyond reason when good reason exists, and none of what she's done and what she's doing has been out of malice. Do you think I of all people would be here helping her if the opposite were true? Really...

[ Yzak speaks in that straightforwardly honest way that can't be mistaken for anything else. And he's never been a good liar, which means that what he says? He completely believes in it to the point where he could almost sound convincing. ]

Once there's actual competency in command, [ Like, you know, him. (funny how he feels this way even when not corrupted. it's just ........ not to this fucked up an extent ] we'll be much better off where making progress and taking care of the threat are concerned.

But, what if the threat is more than just the kaiju? What if it's this world itself and the the humans that exist in it? What happens if we can't end one without the other? I'm still keeping my promise to give it my all for the sake of PLANT.

Whatever it takes.
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[personal profile] busternaut 2025-06-04 03:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[Right from sentence one, Dearka's heart starts to plummet. And it keeps going. Tumbling, further and further with each word that comes from Yzak's lips.

The worst thing is how much this still sounds like the man he loves. At least in his cadence, his demeanor, his mannerisms... The way he holds his head up with pride, that razor sharp gleam in his eye that sharpens to an even keener edge whenever he monologues at length about something important to him. All of that and more marks this as unmistakably his Yzak.

That makes it all the more galling. That near perfect familiarity, but it speaks of culling and ends justifying the means. Proposing solutions to grim hypotheticals that are all too accepting of the idea of mass killing.

He can imagine how this conversation might play out in a more normal circumstance out all too clearly. If Dearka were to muse about such an outcome, a fork in the road where one world had to be ended in order to protect their own? Yzak would absolutely squawk at him and tell him how that wasn't even a fucking thing, and how he needs to stop fretting about morbid shit like that.

There's a long, heavy pause before Dearka manages to find his voice again, and in that time he just. Stares up at Yzak, his jaw set, eyes searching. What's he looking for? Any sign at all that Yzak is aware of just how fucking crazy he sounds.

Eventually... He exhales heavily. Tipping his head back for a moment, he scratches at his jaw with his good hand.]


...You know what's really interesting to me? We've spent, what, a whole year and a month here now? Fighting kaiju, putting our butts on the line, earning adulation and adoration from the public...

In half that time, we barely learn anything about where these fuckers are coming from or what they really want. And then we start getting hints. We start getting signs that the kaiju maybe have a goal. A desire to eradicate humanity.

Then, last month, Queenie gets knocked through a rift. Disappears for a few weeks. And when she resurfaces, what's she suddenly all about? According to what you just told me: Destroying humanity.

[He's looking at Yzak askance now, with just one eye open, his face casually turned away. Head rolled lazily to one side. He cracks a grin. It's not a very nice grin.]

I just think that's kind of interesting.

[He is, very pointedly, not touching on anything Yzak said about protecting PLANT. Yet. Oh, he'll get there. But he has to make this one observation first. He has to know how Yzak navigates that. Because surely he's thought about this as well... Right?]
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[personal profile] coordination 2025-06-05 05:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Even from up here, Yzak notes the way Dearka looks at him, how he's struggling inside to keep himself as composed as he still appears. But he can see those small cracks; the silence, the slightest tensing at that moment he feels his heart begin to drop, the desperation in those searching eyes.

What does he see, though, behind Yzak's? Growing frustration because all Dearka is doing is arguing back, trying to discredit their actions - it's the same way he looks when he's butting heads with someone in the staff offices back home and they're saying something ridiculous, even when faced with facts. Determination, for Yzak can no more stop being determined than breathing the air. There's hurt, too, the more Dearka pushes back against him. The vulnerable window to his soul is cracked open just a bit, and Dearka will see the familiar traces of the abandoned, frightened boy he's seen before. Afraid to be rejected, afraid to be left behind, afraid to be alone.

Yzak will if he has to, but ... he doesn't want do this alone.

He wants Dearka by his side.

H̵e̸ ̵w̴a̶n̷t̶s̶ ̴D̸e̷a̷r̶k̴a̴ ̵b̸y̷ ̷h̷i̸s̶ ̵s̴i̵d̷e̵.̵

He's likewise searching for something in the gaze he returns. Because Dearka just needs to understand. ]


What's your point? It's not as though we're allying with the kaiju - they're still our first priority to deal with!

You know as well as I do that sometimes even your enemies can want the same things as you. But in the end, they're still your enemies.

[ Hell, they still agree with a lot of what Durandal said in the past! They're just making his words a reality based on what they've been through, for the right reasons now.

Just like this. ]


That hasn't changed. Nothing's changed, Dearka! I'm still doing what I swore to do, what we swore to do! Once you understand that, we can stop wasting even more time and finish this!
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[personal profile] busternaut 2025-06-05 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[His chest is aching. Dearka glimpses that pain in Yzak's heart, sees that fear of rejection, and it makes him want to scream and put his fist through a tombstone, because he doesn't want to be the person who makes that fear a reality. He doesn't want to hurt him. But neither can he just go wherever Yzak wants him to, he can't follow him trustingly into the fray this time. Not when the flags are so goddamn red and so goddamn plentiful.]

The hell it hasn't!

[He snaps, voice raising sharply. It's the most forceful he's been at any point in this conversation, and behind him, the Gallu spirit that wears the guise of his younger self drops that illusion and quietly, awkwardly fades into the background. It wants nothing to do with this drama, apparently. And Dearka... Dearka doesn't want to lose his temper, doesn't want to turn this into a fight, but he can't just calmly take what he's hearing anymore.]

We didn't JUST swear to protect PLANT. We promised to help take it towards a more peaceful future! One where it can safely co-exist with the rest of the world! How does killing off the entirety of LILITH, razing an entire organization of people to the ground because you think WE can run things better, fall in line with that!? And doing it with some kind of manufactured disease to boot, did you forget our people were once wrongly blamed for that exact kind of shit?

[He tries to calm down again, lowers his voice, doesn't want this to escalate into an actual shouting match... He sees what Yzak's point is, it's familiar, but the path he's talking about taking to get there...]

Sorry, I just... Look, you wanted to know what my point is? How do you know that she's not being controlled somehow? How can you be sure you're not all being used as some means to an end? You say you want me to understand, well at least tell me this! If it doesn't stop at LILITH, are you really okay with other people from this world being caught in the crossfire?

[Because they have made connections here. Not just within the Outsiders.]

All your regulars and coworkers at the cafe? Granny and Gramps? Their kid Henry, who we've never even met, but we both know so damn much about because they love talking about him so much?

[Countless afternoons spent chatting and bonding, brought together by a cat with a shared name.]

Tsukiko, and all the other kids LILITH has been providing for?

[Music days at the orphanage... A little girl who wanted to learn every traditional dance step Dearka could possibly teach her, who would spin and laugh with glee and try to keep up with Yzak's playing, no matter how fast he sawed at his violin.]

What will you do if they wind up in the crosshairs? Tell me. Please.

[Please say something sane that will reassure him that you're not as fine with throwing this all away as you made it sound before. Casually dropping that you'd accept the cost of sacrificing one world for another.]
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[personal profile] coordination 2025-06-06 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ His expression falls, another sharp jab to his heart. And when he tries to will it back to normal, it only does so much, like holding his hands against a fresh wound, barely helping, blood still seeping between his fingers.

As a result, he looks town. Anguished. The grip around his black bishop tightens as if concerned it could break away from him, too. ]


Nobody's going to die who doesn't have to!

[ What 'have to' means to him right now, however... ]

Whether our people intentionally caused the S2 Influenza or not ... it wiping out most of the Naturals wouldn't have been the worst thing. We would have never had to fight at all! Athrun's family, Nicol, Miguel, Rusty, Olor, Captain Ades and Zelman. Junius Seven. Januarius and December. So many lives could have been spared...! And we could have lived in a world where we're not looking ahead and seeing no end to things!

[ All ghosts that haunt him - haunt the both of them, worse than these Gallu spirits ever could. Despite Yzak's voice raising, impassioned and upset, it sounds ... so tired. ]

That's why this time, I'm not repeating those mistakes. At least where LILITH is concerned, because I don't just think we can do things better.

[ He climbs to his feet. ]

Which means nobody's going to get caught in any crossfire. And even if we have no choice but to expand things beyond LILITH, you're not the only ones we can have down here alongside us. Tsukiko, the people from the cafe, our friends, we'll have the power to keep them safe.

There are options. You know more than anybody that I'd never do something so drastic without considering every one possible!

Just come with me to speak to the Goddess yourself, while everybody else wastes their time fighting! And before you say anything smart to that; she's not about to poke her head out here with guys like Aventurine ready to try and rip her head off! You won't get to speak properly with her that way, anyway! You'll see that she's still Ereshkigal, and you'll see why this is so important to do.

Please, Dearka. [ He can't stop the smallest crack in his voice at that plea. ]
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[personal profile] busternaut 2025-06-06 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[It "wouldn't have been the worst thing"...?

Well. Speaking of "worst things"... That's not the worst thing Yzak could have said in response to that particular point. What would be worse, is if he were back-pedaling harder, regressing, talking about how the Naturals would have deserved it for not being strong or advanced enough to survive the outbreak without help. That's probably what both of them used to think, used to say, when they were first learning the history of their nation, and hearing tales of it's founding from their parents who lived it.

This is barely much better, though. Or maybe it is worse, in some regards, because Dearka can recall some moments from not all that long ago, where he kind of thought the same thing! Privately, and not in a "I wish it HAD happened that way" sense, but in a... "Things would probably have been easier, if nothing else" way. He'd muse on it, and then he'd remind himself that that's the kind of thinking they need to stay the fuck back from, because they've both seen the pathways paved with countless dead. Trails into darkness that form when a maudlin musing solidifies into an ideology, and then into action.

What's better. What's worse. He doesn't know. Dearka's thoughts are spiraling, because he hates this, all of it, SO much. He hates hearing the pain in Yzak's voice every bit as much as he hates hearing Yzak try to justify his reasoning because he gets it. He's tired too. But they're both supposed to know better.

And besides that, it's moot. It's all moot, because no matter what Yzak says or how hard he tries to convince him, there's an elephant in the room that overshadows everything. The knowledge Tezca provided them with about "Beasts," the multiple confirmations that Ereshkigal had lost her divinity... And the confirmation from Yzak himself about her wish for the eradication of humanity...

Yzak's pleading with him. And Dearka feels like he's about to be ripped in half. Because he doesn't want to hurt him like this. But he can't give him what he wants.]


Ereshkigal, [he puts heavy emphasis on the name,] the one I remember? Wouldn't need to be convinced not to kill an entire planet full of people, because she never would have considered it in the first place! I'm pretty sure Nicol, at the VERY least, wouldn't want there to be more killing committed in his name. And NEITHER one of us has the power to tell who "has" to live or die, that's what makes our jobs so fucking hard in the first place! And it's why we can't afford to take shortcuts!

[It's getting harder to breathe. His voice is cracking a little too.]

Yzak, I still love you.

[Crushed under the weight of his own emotions, his anger, his sadness.]

But that's why I can't go with you.

[He doesn't know if he can forgive her for this. For putting him in this position where he has to put Yzak through the pain of rejection, and abandonment. But it's clearly become necessary, now.]

You remember how a year ago, I promised to smack some sense into you, if anything ever got into your head and started making you say and do crazy shit again, the way that fuckass worm did?

[He tries to force a smile, tries to hard pivot into being like his usual jokey self, but it just looks tragic, the corners of his mouth twitching subtly from the strain.]

I really don't want to. 'Specially 'cuz I like your cute face the way it is. But a promise is a promise, so you either come down here and throw down with me right now, or... I guess, I'll see you at your gate.
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[personal profile] coordination 2025-06-10 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ He's about to argue when Dearka mentions Ereshkigal - because she saw things, she realized things, and now she understands! Sure, Yzak feels that perhaps jumping to the most extreme action isn't the wisest thing to do ... but that was before she called her Guardians to her, and she wouldn't have if she didn't trust their judgement. Right?

Right?

N̶o̴n̷e̵ ̵o̴f̵ ̷t̶h̸i̴s̵ ̴i̴s̸ ̵r̵i̵g̴h̸t̷.̶

Right.

Either way, he doesn't get to reply about Eresh, because when Dearka mentions Nicol, Yzak looks like he just slapped him in the face. His mouth snaps shut, he tenses up, he stares down at Dearka with wide eyes, as though hearing that name does something to him. ]


And what have any of those cautions done? What have they stopped? Do we have any less blood on our hands despite trying to avoid it? You know what those answers are! So if it's a certainty no matter what the hell we do, why not go the route where we can not only protect our home from something that could completely annihilate us, but avoid even more blood being shed there!?

[ It's a little sad, that it almost sounds like a bandaid on a gunshot wound situation. But then Yzak adds, ]

And with the Goddess's power ... if more of you would listen and join us, we might even be able to do more for PLANT, too. And finally stop wondering if things are ever going to end.

[ There'd be less Nicols in the long run. To that end, isn't it more honoring him by taking on this burden for his sake, rather than insulting his legacy by killing in his name? That's how Yzak sees it.

He takes a few steps back, his eyes still locked on his partner. ]


I'm willing to do what it takes, even if it means drowning in blood myself. If it's too much for you...

[ There's empathy in his voice. Hurt, heartbreak, because hearing Dearka tell him he loves him nearly rips his heart apart. But he also knows Dearka doesn't want to kill, either. He hates fighting, he hates war. He wouldn't even have rejoined ZAFT if Yzak hadn't asked him to.

S̵o̴ ̸w̸h̶a̴t̶ ̷d̶o̵e̴s̸ ̸i̷t̶ ̴m̸e̶a̸n̴,̶ ̷t̴h̸a̴t̵ ̸h̷e̶ ̸w̸o̴n̸'̸t̵ ̶j̷o̶i̴n̵ ̸m̵e̸ ̶n̸o̷w̵?̵ ]

... then I'll do this for you, too. For both of us.

[ And then he tears his gaze away from Dearka like it kills him to do it, turns, and disappears from sight without another glance. ]
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🎀 (WAILING IN PAIN)

[personal profile] busternaut 2025-06-14 08:20 pm (UTC)(link)
[He can see how much this is hurting Yzak. The rejection, the refusal to agree that what he's saying is in any way at all sensible or okay. But can Yzak see how much this is hurting him?]

Would you listen to me!? I don't WANT you to— No, Yzak, WAIT—!

[Dearka tries to go after him. Running, using his ridiculous Coordinator strength and speed to parkour his way up onto the mausoleum roof. But the time he gets up there, Yzak is long gone.

At his side, Dearka's fist trembles as he clenches it. He feels the atypical urge to throw something, as hard as he can, but there isn't anything nearby.

...There's a lot he needs to try and unpack, about ALL of this. But there's no time. The only thing he can do for now, is to keep pressing forward.]