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TRAVEL/KAIJU LOG #8

ANGELS FALL INTO THE UNDERWORLD


CONTENT WARNINGS: death, disease, COVID-like illness, drugs, loss of limbs, gore, violence, hallucinations

▶ 001. OUTSIDERS UNBOUND (TRAVEL)

There are no alarm blaring this time, no signals dispatched to the Outsiders’ oculars. With all of the organization down, the Angels of LILITH are left on their own to find the source of this crisis and solve it. And find it they did: an effort led by Aventurine, Jinx, Rin and Murasama was able to locate Ereshkigal somewhere underground in the country of Iraq. Raidou was able to ascertain that this location is KĂ»r - the Underworld spoken of in ancient Sumerian legends - and Tezcatlipoca used his divinity to confirm what many feared: the missing goddess has been corrupted and has become a calamity attempting to end humanity. What of the seven others who have disappeared? Tsurumaru, Ratio, Silco, Godzilla, Yzak, Bakugou and Hiyori? Are they corrupted too or are they prisoners? And what of Yuji who foolishly leaped into a rift in an attempt to rescue his friends? According to Dante’s efforts to connect with them, they are safe but they aren’t exactly in their right mind. But in what way?

Those questions may be answered soon as Outsiders depart for their next mission. Yesod and Shinn were able to further refine the search and identify the location of the Underworld’s entrance: in the archaeological dig of Nimrud, where the ruins of the Temple of Ishtar are found. Gilgamesh, who is seemingly a regular of KĂ»r, may be able to guide the Outsiders once they get there.

The trip to Kish however is nothing like previous travels. Where LILITH is typically an organized and orderly organization, the Outsiders have to devise their own methods of getting there. Kaga and Akagi are flying LILITH’s cruiser to Kish and will take anyone willing to go with them. Others may also use a data portal to go to Egypt and from there travel to Iraq - it is the longest way, but also perhaps the safest?

▶ 002. KUR KIGAL IRKALLA (RUINS OF THE TEMPLE OF ISHTAR, IRAQ)

Upon arriving, the heat is scorching and the sight is one unlike any the Outsiders have seen before. No futuristic buildings nor old-fashioned houses can be found - instead, there are the ruins of a three thousand years old city. Dr. Masuda welcomes the Outsiders, explaining to them the ongoing archaeological efforts that have been undertaken to restore the site thanks to modern technology.

And indeed, a few ancient buildings on the outskirts of the ruined city are fully restored. Due to the unique circumstances, Outsiders are allowed to use them and enjoy all the comfort from ancient times. Though there are beds, they are made with reeds with stone pillows; if you are fortunate, you may find one of the few pillows made with wool and feathers. At the very least, as far as food is concerned the Outsiders will not suffer: the archaeologists offer bread, cheese, and meat stews all cooked in the ways of ancient Mesopotamia. Blank clay tablets and reed pens can also be found, toys for children made of clay and little statues depicting various deities. There are also a lot of broken statues, and Dr. Masuda has an explanation for those.

"Our troubles began last month with an earthquake. Upon assessing the damage, we found all of Ishtar’s iconography throughout the ruins destroyed. What’s weird is that nothing else’s been damaged - it’s like someone or something vandalized all things related to her. Then in the deepest chamber of the temple, we found a tunnel that wasn’t there before. According to our tools it leads to an underground cave. Dr. Jones and his team decided to explore it, but they haven’t returned yet."

He will take the Outsiders to the Temple of Ishtar, which still lays in ruins and hasn’t been restored. Statues depicting the goddess are all shattered, and upon reaching the deepest chamber underground: an opening. Flashing a light inside will reveal a tunnel with no end in sight. As they stand by the opening, Outsiders will find their tracker rings and localization magics reactivating: their companions are deep inside the cave.

▶ 003. GATE OF GRAVE KEEPER (FIRST GATE OF THE UNDERWORLD

After a period of traveling through the dark cavern, the air is cool and smells sharply of earth and iron. They will be greeted by a pale glow. When they come close, they will see the light coming from several cages that line a single path which leads them deeper and deeper - all identical to the one Ereshkigal is usually seen carrying around.

They might notice random pitfalls of various depths and strange rock formations with characters scratched into the surface. Were those the names of long lost Outsiders or maybe figures from home? They disappear when you look away, becoming illegible after. Was it maybe a trick? Further up ahead, figures can be seen and voices can be heard in the distance.

Those who decide to run ahead will find themselves facing someone from their past. They act normally at first but after a while, the Outsider may notice something amiss. Regardless of who they are, they will try to convince the Outsider to "join them." Should the Outsider falter, they may be afflicted by the Rift, triggering feelings of grief and regret and even make them turn on their allies.

For those strong enough to resist the illusions, the figures become frustrated and lash out. They shed their illusions and reveal themselves to be skeletal spirits that slash at the Outsiders with sharp claws. They are relentless but simple enough to defeat with regular attacks.

Defeat the spirits and carry on ahead to find a mausoleum: the sealed gate. Many gallĂ» spirits guard the gate. A dark, hooded figure calls out from atop the mausoleum. They look down on the Outsiders with cold, steely eyes.

"I didn't expect so many to make it this far. I'm surprised."

The figure draws their sword and on cue, the spirits attack. Defeat them to enter the mausoleum and fall deeper into the underworld.

▶ 004. GATE OF REASON (SECOND GATE OF THE UNDERWORLD)


As Outsiders descend further into the Underworld, the ocular network becomes spotty, making it difficult to keep in contact with each other, though it is still possible with concentrated effort.

Upon exiting a narrow passageway, they are greeted with a pathway that branches into two, with what seems like Rifts at each end. Despite their appearance, they do not give off any Rift energy, nor do they cause any Rift poisoning symptoms.

Cackling laughter resounds as a GallĂ» Spirit bursts into existence from blue flames. When it speaks, the voice that comes out of it is eerily familiar:

“You’ve proven you can fight, but what of your mind? Use your brain and make your way towards me, or suffer a foolish death.”

Immediately, the world descends into chaos. It blurs, twists and undulates unpleasantly. Colors mix, yet somehow retain their shape. It is a vivid hallucination, as if one had taken psychedelic drugs. The GallĂ» Spirit cackles again as it disappears, leaving them to their doom.

Entering either portal will lead Outsiders to a wide cavern with even more portals. The cracks in the ground and streams of deep, rushing water are wide enough to fall into. There are slopes, rocky platforms and other natural cave hazards. Portals dot the walls and ceiling, tilted sideways or even upside down. Others traversing the maze can be seen sideways and upside down, even if they feel they're right side up. It's an Escher maze. For the especially keen, they may notice the faint scent of chalk lingering around some portals. Or, instead of the echoes of cave ambiance, the portals emit silence with the occasional flutter of a page, as if they’re in a library.

Once they find the exit, Outsiders are greeted with a gate decorated with Greco-Roman motifs, sandwiched between stone shelves lined with carvings of tablets, books and scrolls. Sitting atop the frame that juts out of the rocky walls is a familiar man in unfamiliar form, playing with a cube containing a blue flame and looking bored out of his mind.

“Not bad. Five points.”

▶ 005. GATE OF EXCISION (THIRD GATE OF THE UNDERWORLD)

From the last gate, Outsiders will have to navigate semi-narrow passageways and fissures, lined with bioluminescent mushrooms. It’s easy to get lost, so make sure to use the buddy system to make your way through! It opens into a chasm, leading to a dock, and a lake. The buildings around the dock are decrepit and old.

In the middle of the lake, there is sharp ironwork interlaced with patches of stained bottle glass, and the top is inset with a small, teal gem. Getting to the gate seems easy. It’s just in the middle of the lake, and a little swim never hurt anybody, right? If Outsiders try to swim, it will subject them to rift poisoning, and staring at it might tempt them to jump in.

There are GallĂ» spirits are dressed up like half-pint thugs, and their glass covered faces are pretty disarming! They wait alongside five monstrous forms in shredded clothing that the particularly observant will notice look like explorer’s garb – it’s Dr. Jones and the missing archaeologists!

"Do you know the difference between a man and a monster? Is it a fact of nature, is it something one is born with? Is a monster truly just nature? Sometimes, but not necessarily. Being a monster is often a choice. Becoming a monster is simple. It takes a simple choice. It means you have chosen to do whatever it takes, to take what you want. To hold power in your hands. We all understand that. Can you become the monsters you must become, to survive?"

With the last word, the archaeologists and the GallĂ» spirits attack. Though difficult, if Outsiders are able to defeat Dr. Jones and his crew of corrupted, shimmered archaeologists and Silco, then a path towards the door will lift from beneath the water to the gate.

▶ 006. GATE OF SURVIVAL (FOURTH GATE OF THE UNDERWORLD || KAIJU FIGHT)

As the Outsiders descend a black staircase, they find a towering gate lit by flickering blue flames and a brick path leading to an endless field of lava. Thunder cracks as rain hisses against the magma. Overhead, clouds churn, lightning dancing through the Underworld’s ceiling.

A roar echoes from the gate and GallĂ» Spirits rise from the stones, clad in cheap monster suits like in a low-budget film. Both these spirits and the erratic lightning strikes are a threat as the kaiju unleashes torrents of malevolent red energy. The violent red energy pulses through its body, shining along its scales and feathers.

█ █ █ MONSTER DEBRIEF SHEET
NAME: 𒃀𒀭𒂠𒍠𒁠𒇠𒇠𒀀
HEIGHT: 13m
WEIGHT: ???
CLASS: Extremely Dangerous
LOCATION: The Underworld
ABILITIES: Produces a high temperature energy and is capable of using it as a method of ranged attack. Armored Scales, sharp teeth and claws, tail is likewise a dangerous weapon. Intelligent. Amphibious, resistant to extreme climates.
WEAKNESSES: EMP effects can interfere with the creature’s energy attacks. Exposure to music or verse causes confusion that will make attacking easier. Angering it will cause the creature to fight more recklessly, leaving openings that can be exploited.
EXTRA NOTES: Exercise caution attacking the creature from behind, do not engage it should it enter water.
RIFT EFFECTS: Corruption, Sumerian Fever

█ █ █ ATTACHED PHOTO:



CW: GORE, LOSS OF LIMBS
The battle is savage, with Lucy and Gilgamesh delivering the strongest blows. Lucy’s attack lands early in the fight, and the confusion caused to the kaiju by Raidou and Taryon’s recitals coupled with Akagi, Donatello, and Dearka’s musical interference allows for a clean cut that removes the beast’s right arm! Thanks to Hunter’s ice magic, the beast is frozen solid in ice long enough for Kadaj to strike in deeply! Bravely, Muramasa allows Cagalli’s Akatsuki to throw him towards the kaiju like an angry sword wielding baseball. Capitalizing on Godzilla’s weakened legs Athrun seizes his tail and sends Godzilla tumbling to the ground. Nanami further unbalances the kaiju, allowing Gilgamesh to capitalize on this with his own attacks, the force of which knocks the kaiju hard enough that the tail rips right off!
END CW

This makes Godzilla very upset and sends him into a rampage! Thankfully, Aventurine’s falling poker chips keep everyone from the worst of the retributions. Aki, Vash, Lucy, Geto, and Shinn manage to land in attacks even as the continued damage leads to Godzilla charging his attack, the red glow from his mouth intensifying. All of those efforts give the perfect opening for Harumasa’s arrow to land a perfect hit! His arrow flies true, finding a gap in the scales of the kaiju's throat and delivering an electric shock into his body, sending the beast falling to the ground with that final decisive blow.

The kaiju manages to rise to his knees for a brief moment, so he can fire a final blast of red energy skyward, igniting the clouds and dispelling the storm. The majority of Rift Energy has been purged from his system. Fully spent, he collapses with the glow fading from his body. The spirits vanish, magma cools, and the path ahead clears.

Beyond this gate is an area of respite. A field of clay flowers and sculpted trees awaits, devoid of all life but providing a chance to rest and recover after their trials.

▶ 007. AFTERWORD.

Welcome to the 6th travel log but 8th kaiju log... We'll just call it the 8th kaiju log. As mentioned in the last mingle, the June event is a player plot in which the Outsiders have come together in order to resolve the present crisis.

In this event, all seven gates of the Underworld will have to be crossed and their guardians defeated! However, your character doesn’t need to play out going through every gate. They can let others deal with the earlier gates to focus on later gates. Though they are not featured in this log, Yzak, Bakugou, Hiyori and Ereshkigal will have their own trial/battle in the second log. It is possible to encounter them in this log if they have a top level and come to check on their fellow guardians protecting the earlier gates.

This event is longer than usual so please refer to the event breakdown below for summaries if necessary. Additional information may be provided in top levels of characters involved in the player plot planning.
EVENT BREAKDOWN/RECAP (CLICK TO EXPAND)
001. OUTSIDERS UNBOUND (TRAVEL) With none of the usual alarms or notifications, Outsiders are on their own in terms of figuring out the current crisis. Through the collective efforts of the Outsiders, they will have discovered a route to Ereshkigal and potentially the missing through Iraq. Outsiders are expected to find their own way to Kûr - the Underworld,whether with some help or through the data portal through Egypt.

002. KUR KIGAL With their arrival to the old city, Outsiders are provided shelter in the form of restored buildings that have been retro-fitted for their comfort. With food and shelter no longer a concern Dr. Masuda takes the Outsiders to the Temple of Ishtar where the trials await them deep in the tunnel and caves systems.

003. GATE OF GRAVE KEEPER In the first gate, Outsiders may find pitfall traps and strange gravestones with familiar names written on them. GallĂ» spirits can manifest as figures from characters' pasts and will try to convince characters to succumb to the effects of the Rift. Overcoming the trial and defeating Tsurumaru will allow Outsiders to pass to the next gate.

004. GATE OF REASON Outsiders must battle nauseating hallucinations and navigate a portal maze with dangerous traps and GallĂ» spirits. They can find portals that smell like chalk or sound like turning pages to reach the exit. Reaching the end and defeating Ratio will lead to the next gate.

005. GATE OF EXCISION Outsiders must work together to move throughout fissures, dangerous water, and trap buildings. They can encounter the missing scientists who are drugged to be berserk, stronger, and have more stamina. Defeating them and Silco will allow Outsiders to move on to the next gate.

006. GATE OF SURVIVAL Outsiders must climb up a staircase and fight Gallu spirits while avoiding energy blasts from Godzilla. The environment is very stormy and hot because of magma. Defeating the kaiju will allow Outsiders to move on the next gate but also provide them with a moment to rest and recover.


rebelsamurai: (sunglasses - contemplating some shit)

[personal profile] rebelsamurai 2025-06-04 02:11 am (UTC)(link)
[Despite his Texan roots, Johnny sounds like an inner-city punk with a chip on his shoulder. That's just Night City lingo coming out in full force. There's nothing to worry about here. However, Johnny been trying his best to stop himself from sounding too much like a thug from Watson.]

Really? [He takes a quick drag on his cigarette as he gives the cloak another appraising glance.] Shit, I might have to get me one of those.

[He’ll do anything to raise his battle proficiency stats after this shitshow. Johnny doesn’t want to feel this shitty ever again.]

Nano-machines, huh? I should’ve guessed.

[He mutters as the cigarette smoke unfurls from his broken nose. The ash within the smoke causes him to wince a little but he’s no wuss. He can handle a little bit of pain for his favorite bad habit.]

Holdin’ hands is the least of my worries.

[He sighs before offering the kid his organic hand. It would make no sense to offer the left since that’s a prosthetic, an old Arasaka model.]
the_fourteenth: (022)

[personal profile] the_fourteenth 2025-06-04 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
[Raidou used to be quite the touch-averse person, especially with people he didn't know. Since he's gotten this upgrade, though, he practically shoves his hand in everyone's face post-battles.]

I don't regret getting the upgrade, but I can't recommend it. Unless LILITH finally got enough anesthetic to give out for elective surgeries.

[He takes Johnny's hand, and it's just a few moments later that there's a warm tingly sensation, especially around the worst of his wounds.]

I've lost count of the people it's let me help, though. It was worth the pain.
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[personal profile] rebelsamurai 2025-06-04 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[Johnny was just as touch-averse until his death. He disliked it when others touched him without his permission; unless the mood struck him, he was usually chilly and distant. However, after being digitally downloaded into the proverbial matrix, Johnny has grown a little touch-starved. He craves even the slightest hint of human interaction more than he is ready to acknowledge.

Even still, he thinks it's a little strange to be holding some random guy's hand like this. The tabloids back home would have had a field day. Thankfully, Johnny doesn't have to worry about any of that...yet.
]

Really? [He glances over at the kid with a look of surprise on his face.] You underwent surgery with little to no anesthesia?

Holy shit, that's hardcore. Kinda reminds me of the day I got this arm.

[Johnny mutters while glancing down at his silver hand. Despite all the wear and tear, his silver prosthetic is still in preemgood condition. It has a couple of dents here and there but that's all superficial. He flexes his hand for a moment, idly testing out the joints as he balls his metal fingers into a fist.]

I don't know how much cyberware I can handle, so I might keep it light for now.

[While speaking, Johnny couldn't help but notice that he was feeling better. That warm, tingly sensation was strange at first, but Johnny soon got used to it. He could feel the nanomachines working hard to close the deep laceration on his side. It's an odd sensation, but at least it doesn't hurt.]

Got a name, kid?
the_fourteenth: (069)

[personal profile] the_fourteenth 2025-06-05 02:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Ah... twice, actually. [Said a little sheepishly. He's not proud of needing upgrades in order to keep up with the other Outsiders, and the surgeries were pretty horrendous.] I also got their nanotech upgrade that gives you greater strength.

[The benefit of the healing nanobots is that it helps heal up Raidou, too. Won't do much to fix how tired he is though, physically and mentally. He looks at Johnny's metal arm for a moment - it looks different than the ones LILITH installs.]

Did you have that one before you arrive here?

[Oh right. He's bad at remembering to introduce himself. The curse of being so quiet.]

Oh. It's Kuzunoha. Kuzunoha Raidou.
rebelsamurai: (A little bit of humor)

[personal profile] rebelsamurai 2025-06-06 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
Twice? [Johnny is astonished. This kid underwent such operations with no anesthesia? That's extremely hardcore. Johnny knew he would have been screaming in agony. Despite all of the drugs he usually uses to mask the pain, his pain tolerance is quite low. After all, this is a brand-new body made by LILITH and even before being reincarnated, Johnny always was quite sensitive to pain.]

I don't know how you managed, choom. [He mutters with a look of disbelief that is partially concealed thanks to his sunglasses.] Are you a masochist or just desperate for some chrome? I'm guessing it's the latter.

[More like he's hoping it's the latter. Johnny is sick and tired of running into weirdos.]

Nice to meetcha. I'm Johnny Silverhand, rock star extraordinaire and solo merc by nightfall.

[He laughs with a slight wince. That nose of his is still broken.]
the_fourteenth: (031)

[personal profile] the_fourteenth 2025-06-06 02:07 pm (UTC)(link)
[Raidou blinks a bit in surprised. Choom? Chrome? He's too lame to keep up with this. The answer as to why, though, isn't a great one. He doesn't look too proud.]

Ah... I suppose it's a long story. But, I... I just wanted to be be able to help more. I can do a lot more, now that I have them.

[Well, Raidou's definitely not met a rock star before. Or a rock musician of any kind. Forgive him, he's from 1922. It's something he's learned a bit about since getting here, though. He's even been to a basement rock concert!]

Rock star? So a musician? I don't think we have many of those among the Outsiders.
rebelsamurai: (sunglasses - thinking about it)

[personal profile] rebelsamurai 2025-06-07 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[Sorry, it's hard for Johnny not to use such city lingo after ten-plus years of living in Night City. The slang just kind of stuck with him.]

Long stories are always the best over beers. [He suggests with a hint of a grin.] But yeah, I get you.

[There's definitely more to the story than what meets the eye, but Johnny isn't about to badger the poor kid.]

Yeah, I'm a musician and judging from your tone, one of the few.

[He couldn't help but laugh a little, even if it still hurts to laugh.]

A musician who sparked a rebellion, a fucking legend who started a war with one of the biggest megacorporations ever to set foot on U.S. soil. It's my crowning achievement in life.

[Despite all the sarcasm, Johnny is honestly telling the truth.]

I helped a ragtag group of mercenaries bomb Arasaka Tower in the summer of 2023. Not exactly my best work, to be honest.
the_fourteenth: (066)

[personal profile] the_fourteenth 2025-06-09 06:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Mm. If we make it back, I may need one.

[No he doesn't. He doesn't like beer. He'll take a wine, though. He's only 19 but hey, he's earned it. They all have.

One of the nice bonuses of healing people like this is it forces Raidou into more social interaction than he's ever had. He's not much of a talker himself, but he's a good listener. Despite how exhausting and traumatizing this whole trip has been so far, he listens with his head tilted curiously.]


Why not? Ah, if you don't mind me asking. Were they the megacorporation?
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[personal profile] rebelsamurai 2025-06-10 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh, I'll save a seat for you by the bar.

[Johnny quips, wishing he could have a sip of alcohol right now. He typically prefers tequila, but a cold beer isn't too bad. That is, as long as it contains a splash of cerveza, a Mexican beer that he enjoys.]

Let's just say--[He sighs quietly as he recalls that night. It was his last night alive. Johnny had a strange feeling that things were going to go wrong, but he never expected to die or cared if he did. He was just filled with so much hate and anger after Alt died. Nothing else mattered other than taking out Arasaka completely.]

Too many innocent people got hurt in the aftermath.

[The thousands and thousands of names he saw scrawled on the memorial at the city's center come to mind. It was a nuke they set off and the nuclear aftermath darkened all of Night City for months.]

Arasaka was one of the most powerful corporations in the world. Their CEO and founder, Saburo Arasaka, ruled that company like an emperor. He was a real sack of shit who got off of hurting people for the sake of his growing empire.
the_fourteenth: (031)

[personal profile] the_fourteenth 2025-06-11 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
[Johnny's going to be waiting for awhile. This kid's only 19. No rules against having a drink in the base lounge, though.

It's hard to tell from Raidou's usual flat expression, but there's enough empathy in his quiet voice.]


Sorry it had to come to that. Our missions have often gone similarly. Too many innocents caught up in it. Everyone tells me that you can only do so much. That you can't save everyone. Tell that to their families, though.

[Heavy civilian losses in places like Seoul, Las Vegas and Brasov constantly weigh on Raidou. Even back home, where the stakes were slightly smaller, he always thinks about what he might have done differently to spare more lives.]
rebelsamurai: (A Shadowy Interloper)

[personal profile] rebelsamurai 2025-06-11 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
[Right! The poor kid is young enough to put his life on the line to save the world but not old enough to drink. Oddly enough, that is what happened to Johnny when he joined the military at just fifteen.]

Yeah, I've noticed. [He mumbles as he thinks about all the destruction he seen in Kyoto recently.] This whole thing is fucked.

[He grumbles as he puts out his cigarette against the ground. There are no ashtrays here, so please excuse any littering. He flicks what remains of the cigarette down towards the ruins nearby.]

Can I be honest here? [He gives Raidou another glance.] I don't know what the fuck I'm doing here.

[Johnny honestly doesn't know why LILITH picked him. This whole fighting to save the world shit is right up his alley but Johnny definitely doesn't think he's the best man for the job.]

I don't get why I'm here and not---[He pauses briefly as he struggles to find the right word to describe his only friend in life, V.]

Not him, you know? I mean...fuck, I don't know.

[He lets out a dissatisfied groan and gently runs his prosthetic hand through his hair.]

I know someone who would have been a better fit for this type of work, a gonk with a golden heart. He is stronger, faster, and, dare I say it, superior to me in virtually every way, but...

[Johnny lets out a strained sigh as he looks down at the rubble again.]

He's not here.
the_fourteenth: (144)

[personal profile] the_fourteenth 2025-06-11 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Nearly every day since he was brought here, Raidou has wondered the exact same thing. Especially when he was brought here without his faithful demon allies to fight with him. Bringing a summoner without his summons - even one who's a talented swordsman and marksman besides - seems like LILITH is shooting themselves in the foot. Yet, Raidou's still here, all this time later. Still alive and fighting.

Raidou watches Johnny struggle with all this, and can relate wholeheartedly.]


I wonder about the choices LILITH has made. How much control they have over who they bring, who stays. I, too, know so many other more experienced summoners who would be a better fit than myself. I even seem less suited than most other Outsiders.

[Raidou wishes he had an answer for all of it, but he doesn't.
"It is what it is" certainly isn't a satisfying conclusion, even if that's basically it.]


But... I'm here. And since I'm here, and there are people who need my help, I'll do my best to give it. I don't have answers for those victims. I don't know if more people could have been saved if someone else was brought in my stead.

[He lets out a sigh. This is a lot of talking for him, especially in this state.]

There are too many unknowns. So I try to focus on what I can do, not what I have failed to do. [He rubs at his eyes tiredly with his free hand.] I'm not sure I'm very good at that, though.