WHO: Rodion & everyone
WHAT: Late 2024 Catchall Log
WHERE: Various Locations depending on the happenings during the months
WHEN: Late October to End of December
WARNINGS: General, blank warning for mentions/talk on dark subjects. Headers will be marked according if things develop in that direction.
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-> november
sleepover.... 🥹
but, she did promise a sleepover with rodya months ago. and she won't lie, having no one to share a bed with when she desperately needs it most is miserable as heck. so she forces herself to stay over at rodya's, albeit reluctantly, judging from how she's huddled on one corner of the bed while rodya busies herself with... something. probably food or games or whatever the heck.
rodya will... want to talk to her first, though. she really isn't in the mood to start anything at the moment. ]
starts crying already.....
Ishmael is at the corner of her bed while Rodya is seated at her desk, staring at her bottle collection as her fingers play with a wooden bear.]
Soooo... Did ya make any plans with others? Got anything coming up?
[Even if this is suppose to be a regular fun night, there is still ice in the air due to how heavy their last mission was... So Rodya is going to try to make the air less suffocating, even by a little bit.]
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Not currently. [ she'd had drinks with aventurine, and went stargazing with elysium, but that was it. ] I don't know. I've got a lot to think about. I'm still waiting for LILITH to make the official announcement.
[ since she's sure that they will at least acknowledge the lives that were lost, right? unless if they're function just like any other wing in the City who don't care what happens to their workers. ]
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Yeah. I think they'll make one once they wrapped up on the other big problems... We haven't had any Outsider deaths until now so something gotta get said. Lot happened so there is a lot on their plate.
[The blood shortage, the cure for the Outsiders that turned into bloodfiends, the children that LILITH chose to take back with them instead of leaving them in a destroyed homeland... She sits up on her desk, letting out a few hums as she muses over her thoughts.]
Once everyone is recovered and got some time to process everything, maybe a good ol' get-together would fix some spirits. [A pause.] Something better than nothing.
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[ she huddles her knees closer to her chest. the thought of it immediately repulses her, thinking that other people might ask her questions about it. ]
I don't know if I should attend. I'll just ruin the mood for everyone.
[ like how she's already ruining the mood of their impromptu sleepover. ugh. ]
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[People need some time... Ishmael might need more time to process. The heart is a complicated thing.]
Remember that hot springs night with the other girls? That was fun.
[Throwing the first example out that comes to mind, unaware that it might hit something wrong.]
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lowkey, she shouldn't. rodion was only helping. but the thought of being brought along because she's being pitied is going to inevitably rub at her the wrong way at some point. ]
And what? You guys are just going to talk about crushes and relationships while I sit in the corner doing fuck-all. At least you people still have boyfriends who are still alive to talk about.
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⏰ dante - consultation session
It can be obvious from her eyes that she's somewhat nervous. With her track record on previous consultations, she wonders if she can even be honest with them and stay on topic instead of the two of them sit in each other's company with mindless chatter. There is a chance that Dante might want to dig into her past some more and she doesn't know if she's prepared for that... She went through a year of ups and downs, trying to put cracks in her stagnation on her own terms yet has she truly changed at all?
A huge sigh before she knocks on Dante's door.]
Dante! It's me.
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[Dante opens the door for her and step off to the side to let her in. Their room is still pretty barebones, limited to the furniture it came with, and their shoulders lift and sink once more in imitation of a sigh.
It's such a departure from their old office/room...]
< I don't have a lot of places to sit at the moment, so I'll let you pick between the desk or the bed. >
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[It would be a huge surprise if she didn't clear out her entire snack stash once they are done here. She walks in and sets her bags on the desk, already grabbing a candy bar to start on as she takes a seat.]
Rooms ain't much to start out with, but it's still better compared to the ones I had back at the City. A proper bed is a huge game changer!
[Maybe once Dante gets some money, she can help with decoration to bring it closer to their office back on the bus.]
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[Another thing they wouldn't know for sure, though they had to admit it is comfortable to sit on. Their room on the bus didn't even have one.
At the very least, they can make it look nice. It's a start in the furniture department.
Funnily enough, they seem to have a similar thought to Rodya.]
< I might ask you guys for some help figuring out what to do in here. Well... you and Ishmael. >
[They're not sure if Vergilius would even give his opinion. Or if he'd have one.]
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[She crosses her legs as she takes another bite out of snack #1 out of [unknown number]. Her eyes do move around the room as the ideas on room decor pop into her head.]
As much as I would love planning that with you, I guess we got other stuff to talk about too, huh?
[Where to even start... Well, she can let Dante decide that.]
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[Because when are things ever really simple for any of them, much less in a whole new place like this?]
< How have things been for you lately? I know I've missed a lot, but I get the feeling that I'm missing something that might be out of the ordinary even for here. >
[So they want to see how Rodya's been navigating it.]
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Things been rougher than usual, but I'll manage. Trying to pick pieces up and make plans with my friends so we don't stick in the dumps for too
long.
[The world doesn't slow down for mourners after all. Then again, maybe it's because she actually has time to process death here unlike the City that things sting harder than normal. She's still trying to keep most (if not all) of the baggage in and let it rot away until it disappears.]
Everyone got hit hard from the last mission. Still feeling exhausted from it, lost good folks back there... Some folks got hit the hardest.
[like Ishmael.]
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oops I droped their clock brackets
its okay
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👀 kabru - brunch time (backdated to 13th)
She is going to wait for her companion to arrive outside of the place, dressed pretty casually for a celebration. There is a familiar gift on her neck. As soon as Kabru get into her view, she will give him a wave.]
Hey, you made it! Hope you are hungry~
this is so late i'm sorry
Kabru will rock up on time, paper bag hanging off his one arm as he keeps himself in the shade under a parasol. The sleeve of his other arm flaps freely. He's gotten pretty used to it. ]
Rodya. It's good to see you. You wore the gift I got you. [ He's pleased to see that. Now he hands her that small bag with the things he's bought.
oskmyr also i forgot that kabru can't eat normal food right now but it's ok he can have coffee maybe!!! ]
🧍♂️ yuwon -> birthday date (backdated to 14th...ish... around that, before the funeral obv
As of right now, those thoughts are pushed back because she wanted to focus on their private little celebration in the peace of her room. They thought about going out to somewhere, but she decided to keep it more personal. They have food and dessert, both bought and made, on the desk serving as a makeshift table. Sitting together, eating lightly as they talk in each other's comforts. There is an appeal to a grand celebration for herself, but the little fires of life that help keep her warm is truly what keeps her going.]
Do you have any big plans for the future?
[She didn't hesitate on asking such a question, even if it leans towards a more serious conversation. The type where the two rarely have since it takes a lot of energy out of them.]
Didn't mean to jump you with such a serious question, but given how things have been... Wondering what's been on your mind lately. That's all.
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not too unlike now. the celebration is oddly intimate, but he doesn't dislike that. he likes that there's no expectations around them. while it may have been concerning for some, he likes that neither of them question each other too deeply. that they end up sidestepping or dropping most inconvenient topics.
except, perhaps because today is a day unlike any other, he pauses at the sudden line of questioning. ]
You mean after everything? [ after they achieve all they're meant to, that is. ] I don't think it's changed much from before. Assuming everything works out in the Tower, I think I'd finally want to rest. [ ... ]
Or did you mean something more specific?
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[Rodion knows that there is a lot of unspoken topics between them and they tend to steer clear or avoid them all together. She knows that they cannot avoid these things forever. Like her and her own problems, who continue to haunt her and drag her down even while moving forward. When will be okay to let go...]
I know our time is limited here, but it could still last a long time. Plus there is a chance... [She goes silent to take a breath. Get it out of yourself, Rodya.] There is a chance one of us might die before we go back to our respective missions and stuff.
[Dante can bring her back, but that might not work given LILITH's tinkering on the clock head and the risk is too great to find out if she can be brought or not. She isn't trying to jump into death willingly, if something kills her then it kills her.]
What would you do if I die before you do? What do you want to do together before we seperate? Even if it's not a solid plan, a nice thought or two helps keep people going.
[Her gaze lowers as she looks at her hands, focusing on something while she talks.]
It's nice to rest, but surely there is a lot you wanna do before you get to that point.
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it's a topic not too unrelated by their last talk. in a way, yuwon is surprised she is choosing to address it again. it's true it was easier for him to think of things within the lens that he always had. to focus and double down on his objectives from back in the tower; it left less room for useless emotions and lingering sentiments. normally, he would have regarded the topic with just deafening silence, but he can tell it probably took a lot of courage on rodya's part to have even asked. an unspoken conviction...
more than that, he attempts to assuage her: ] I won't die. [ or let her die. it's firm, as if he didn't believe in a hint of it going otherwise. rather, he couldn't afford to have things go that way, whether this was their original bodies or not. ]
But, if it will help ease your mind. I don't really know. I have never really had someone by my side like this before. I had companions, but as you know, it's not like they remember me now. [ but, he seems to speak of it as if he were speaking of facts, removed from himself. more of a habit than an act of defiance, or dismissal. which likely shows on his countenance, and the way his brows furrow slightly in focus. ]
Even talking like this... you might be the first. [ at least in this context. even if they may have often discussed what they might do when the outer gods were defeated, it's distinctly different. ] You once mentioned traveling... Should we?
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[Not that she meant to roast him like that, but is she wrong... Plus out of the two of them, she is the one that is going to die first. She's died in so many ways and it's always something that she will never get used to... It reinforces on how weak and unspecial she is right now. Even if people consider her as special, in the eyes of the world, she is still a nobody.]
I guess part of living is figuring out all those "I don't know" answers we got in our heads. Searching for the answers even if they end up not being ones we like... And yet we hope that the answers will take some weight off instead of nothing. [A small smile grows on her lips for some reason. Is it fondness or is she trying to navigate back to a more hopeful thought process?]
I would really like that. Check out new spots if we can and revisit the places we've been to before. [Like Vegas, where that Moment happened.] Too bad we can't really do it freely otherwise I would let you take me wherever the wind is blowing for you.
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the straight forward way in which she speaks makes his expression falter for just a second. he comprehends he's definitely made mistakes, but she was probably the only one who could bring it up without a second thought.
but, he does have the inkling that her words appear to be coming from a more ... specific place. a place that was furtive and just out of his reach of comprehension. despite the fact that he intuitively realizes there's still a lot rodya doesn't reveal openly, he also doesn't press it. not that he doesn't ever wonder, but simply because he wasn't of the belief in prying. though, admittedly it worked both ways, and he had the feeling they were both entirely aware of this fact.
yet, here they both were. discussing a future that neither of them were privy to.
he likes this part of rodya. where she appeared fearless at times, not held back by all she doesn't know of the future. instead, she continues to cast her dice time and time again. compared to that, he... ] That sounds like something you would say. I admit, it's been a long time where I didn't have to analyze every detail. [ ... ] I guess it's time to adapt.
Are you sure you should trust me that much?
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🐦hunter -> shopping time! (backdated before funeral)
[No matter what the kid and his bird are doing around the base, Rodion will somehow find him during the day and she will beam at him.]
Are you free? Great, come shopping with me~ We're gonna get around on my motorcycle and all of that~
[Girl, you ain't giving him a choice... She has her reasons!!!]
-> december